A Numbing Diet

A few months ago I decided to go on a diet. It was not a change in my eating habits but a change in my mental consumption. I had caught myself over the course of the pandemic reading more and more news articles, scrolling through endless youtube videos, and occasionally losing myself in social media–often when it was time instead Read More …

Settling into the Down

Some weeks you’re in the groove. Some weeks you’re not. Tonight I’m feeling decidedly disconnected from the music. I feel like I’m astral projecting above my body as it moves to the rhythm of its own synth. I’m syncopating out of sync. Usually I would feel verklempt about this. Swimming in a frustration of non-connection; with the music, my body, Read More …

Loss

I am missing the woman I love. A friend has lost his son. My cheeks are sticky from my small sorrow. I lament not feeling her touch, smelling her hair, tasting her breath alongside mine. A man has lost his son. What is the measure of my small grief? Alongside one so large. Soon I will hear her voice. I Read More …